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here!

...hehe..assuming may interesado (~~,)

moving in a new place...

...but it's still under construction :)

dreams really do come true..

i just saw this video from youtube of Connie Talbot singing "somewhere over the rainbow". the little girl was such a darling and she sang the song so wonderfully that i almost cried along with Amanda the first time i heard her sing. there was a line of the song that goes "...dreams really do come true" that really strike me...and i thought there's truth with it that i actually believed..and i said to myself.. "yeah, why not..dreams could really come true" ...but then, what is really my dream..? sigh*..i hope i can figure that out soon.

chickened out

...grad day is nearing
dunno what i'll do next
..scares me

...ahmmm

is it just me, or the world's really changi'n..?

"i love you too"

i got sick while on our out-of-town duty at Davao Regional Hospital last friday...but the positive side of it was that i got a surprise from my baby...

thanks so much baby

boohoo!

shifting exams tomorrow...so not into studying yet.

can't sleep

why does this insomnia-thingee strikes me when i don't need it...or maybe i do.
sigh*

the one-million question in my head (at the moment)

will it be law school or med school...wala nalang kaya?

eugh!

on not giving up

got this email from a friend:

Don't give up.....

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality. .. I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would
not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant.
..But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it couldnot handle."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".
"I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."
He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?"
I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story.

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learning still...

for over a month a now, i have kept my daily planner in a drawer thinking that by doing such, i will learn to let go of my things-to-do's and live life spontaneously, one day at a time. ..to learn to actually deal with my life's buggies hands-on and not just write about them at the back pages of my planner...to learn to face my not-so-childish fears (and there's a lot of them) and stop hiding from them in the pages of that brown booklet. that one month wasn't easy. the things that came my way unexpectedly were overwhelming.

i did let go of the lists i used to have on my daily planner (minus the post-its this time, mind you) but dealing with life and facing one's fears? ...they are all but easy to achieve. i think they never were short-term goals...they are learned everyday and that as each day unfolds itself, you get to keep some pieces of wisdom in your pocket and use them as wisely as one can be.

i called in sick for today's duty

dengue and UTI were ruled out...the doctor said its viral infection.
well, at least i got to rest for the whole day... :)

why, oh why?

pressure, pressure, pressure...i don't want any more pressure :(

sniff*sniff*

bummer mode.

shifting exam tomorrow and on Thursday...i should be studying.