walking my on pace...

=)

2008-07-07T10:59:00.001+08:00

here!

...hehe..assuming may interesado (~~,)

moving in a new place...

2008-05-22T16:16:00.002+08:00

dreams really do come true..

2008-05-16T19:26:00.004+08:00

i just saw this video from youtube of Connie Talbot singing "somewhere over the rainbow". the little girl was such a darling and she sang the song so wonderfully that i almost cried along with Amanda the first time i heard her sing. there was a line of the song that goes "...dreams really do come true" that really strike me...and i thought there's truth with it that i actually believed..and i said to myself.. "yeah, why not..dreams could really come true" ...but then, what is really my dream..? sigh*..i hope i can figure that out soon.

chickened out

2008-03-17T20:13:00.002+08:00

...grad day is nearing
dunno what i'll do next
..scares me

...ahmmm

2008-02-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

is it just me, or the world's really changi'n..?

"i love you too"

2008-01-27T19:49:00.000+08:00

i got sick while on our out-of-town duty at Davao Regional Hospital last friday...but the positive side of it was that i got a surprise from my baby...

thanks so much baby

boohoo!

2007-12-17T19:52:00.001+08:00

shifting exams tomorrow...so not into studying yet.

can't sleep

2007-11-10T01:23:00.000+08:00

why does this insomnia-thingee strikes me when i don't need it...or maybe i do.
sigh*

the one-million question in my head (at the moment)

2007-10-26T18:04:00.000+08:00

will it be law school or med school...wala nalang kaya?

eugh!

on not giving up

2007-10-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

got this email from a friend:

Don't give up.....

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality. .. I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would
not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant.
..But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it couldnot handle."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".
"I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."
He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?"
I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story.

*

2007-10-03T19:18:00.000+08:00

learning still...

2007-09-01T02:07:00.000+08:00

for over a month a now, i have kept my daily planner in a drawer thinking that by doing such, i will learn to let go of my things-to-do's and live life spontaneously, one day at a time. ..to learn to actually deal with my life's buggies hands-on and not just write about them at the back pages of my planner...to learn to face my not-so-childish fears (and there's a lot of them) and stop hiding from them in the pages of that brown booklet. that one month wasn't easy. the things that came my way unexpectedly were overwhelming.

i did let go of the lists i used to have on my daily planner (minus the post-its this time, mind you) but dealing with life and facing one's fears? ...they are all but easy to achieve. i think they never were short-term goals...they are learned everyday and that as each day unfolds itself, you get to keep some pieces of wisdom in your pocket and use them as wisely as one can be.

i called in sick for today's duty

2007-08-25T19:04:00.000+08:00

dengue and UTI were ruled out...the doctor said its viral infection.
well, at least i got to rest for the whole day... :)

why, oh why?

2007-08-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

pressure, pressure, pressure...i don't want any more pressure :(

sniff*sniff*

bummer mode.

2007-07-31T19:40:00.000+08:00

shifting exam tomorrow and on Thursday...i should be studying.

contented*

2007-07-24T19:38:00.000+08:00

...it's rare, this feeling
...but I'm happy about it

sigh*

internship starts tomorrow

2007-07-01T10:41:00.000+08:00

...the feeling is a mixture of excitemnt and anxiety.

bigger responsibilities are up my way but i guess it'll be a wonderfull 10-month adventure. i know it's not going to be aesy...but...it really isn't going to be easy. so i'm keeping my fingers crossed on this one.

single by choice...

2007-06-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

Shellie, Ria, and I while walking along Roxas Avenue:

Ria: tan-aw ninyo pag nag Ateneo ko, nagkauyab ko?

Shellie: tan-aw nako Baliw (that's Ria), dili gihapon kay pare-pareha lang ang environment nila sa SPC (San Pedro College)

me: bitaw Baliw...remember baya, we're single by choice and not by circumstance...

Ria: yes...stupid choice! :D

LOL!

it's one of those days when i'm glad i don't have a boyfriend

2007-06-12T23:21:00.000+08:00

do you have those days..?

the type that started out as a sunny one, and you're all smiles, and as if everyone is smiling back at you...and then things start to fall on all the wrong places and suddenly the day is gloomy and sad and everyone is angry.

eugh! i just hate it!

the school-thingees and friends-thingees and family-thingees...i just can't seem to juggle all those stuffs right now. :( heck, i'm talking like i'm a married person here or something. maybe i should change this entry to "it's one of those days when i wish i'm at Nabs"...or maybe not.

finally...

2007-06-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

...I've conquered my bang-phobia! ha!:D

am excited!

2007-05-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

beach with friends tomorrow...can't wait!

my diversion

2007-05-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

---> cooking
it always does the trick(~~,)

new fave!

2007-04-28T23:19:00.001+08:00

karl, thanks for having me listen to this song...now its my fave!

lol!

--->

2007-04-23T19:30:00.001+08:00

moving on.
trying my best.

2007-04-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

it feels good to cry sometimes
(sigh*)

:D

2007-04-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

had my hair permed...

the what-if's in my head...

2007-04-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

TODAY.

DEFENSE.
NERVOUS.

TOMORROW.
HELLO CLASS CARDS.
VERY NERVOUS.

sigh.

...not again.

2007-04-03T08:09:00.000+08:00

today i'll be going home to Nabs, and i dunno if that's good or bad.

good, for i'll get to be in the place where i feel so secure and comfortable. that place where i don't have to struggle to be myself or prove myself to the people around me. it's that place where i can make mistakes and yet moving on and learning from it is not as hard 'coz i have people i know will be there for me at my highest and at my lowest. its that only place i know where i don't have to seek perfection for it is perfect in itself. yes it's not paradise, but its my home.

on the other hand, going home also means that anytime soon i'll have to get myself back to the city - which is the hard part 'coz i'm still not good at adjusting. and with that i'll be spending some days thinking and missing the things i can do back home.

if only i can put Nabs inside my overnight bag and bring it here with me in Davao.

funny:

2007-04-01T20:22:00.005+08:00

http://www.myheritage.com

kuya dino's grad day!

2007-03-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

congrats, ngas!(^^,)
so proud of yah..!

eh?

2007-03-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

oli: magpa-sunburn ko te
me: yaw lang nang sunburn, chol. TAAAAn lang
oli: unsay pan?

LOL!

hoping against all hopes

2007-03-17T19:15:00.000+08:00

my week will be filled with comprehensive exams...

i hope i'll get by just fine...

sigh*

monday s__ks (sort of)

2007-03-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

i hate it! i get to have my nails done only once in a while (that's particularly when I'm kinda not feeling under the weather) and they get damaged all the time.

this afternoon, i had my nails colored hot red. Ms. Flor did a wonderful job on it. i made sure that all the nails on my fingers were dried of nail polish before i happily and contentedly left the salon. so there i was, with my nails in all their shining glory.

but then came my jeepney ride back home. Shining nails got constantly agitated, causing the nail polish on two of their members to chipped off. tsk, tsk, tsk. this has happened to me twice already!

...can't i at least have a good manicure after all that has happened?

i could've but i didn't

2007-03-11T12:29:00.000+08:00

i've made yet another mistake brought about by my impulsively deciding on something. i usually make mistakes such as this. but more often than not, i get away with 'em or that i get to make up for the damage they've caused.

...this time though, there's no way for me to turn around and undo what has been done.

(^^,)

2007-03-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

happy meeeee!

?*(%#!~/?**&

2007-02-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

quiz and exam results in blood banking made me feel sick... (sniff*sniff*)

just a thought

2007-02-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

where will i be a year (or a decade) from now?

school stress

2007-02-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

so this is what they've been telling us...
there have been so many demands...
strict rules are followed...
so many things to do with so little time...

i think my head's gonna blow off!

LSS

2007-02-18T14:09:00.000+08:00

Taylor, the latte boy
bring me java, bring me joy
oh Taylor, the latte boy
i love him, i love him, i love him...

Taylor, the latte boy
bring me mocha, bring me joy
oh Taylor, the latte boy
i love him, i love him, i love him...

it's in the mar-gah-ri-tah...(wink*)

2007-02-11T20:53:00.000+08:00

i
only
had
an
hour
of
sleep
but
i
was
up
and
about
the
whole
day.... (~~,)

: )

2007-01-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

having an injured foot taught me to take each step one at a time....

...and so it still was a wonderful day for me.

first post of the year : )

2007-01-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

been absent from blogging for the longest time. i sure missed blogging. i got sooooo many stories to tell. stories i should've posted on the very day that they took place. and since our PC is into some technical problem (it cannot open blogspot... hmpf!), i just wrote down those supposed entries on my little planner instead...(^^,) ...maybe i'll edit this post and add them here next time...

p.s.
i hope this one gets to be published this time. (hopeful sigh)

and oh! happy new year to all of us! hehe...
ciao!

maglana's... (~~,)

2006-12-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

*

2006-12-22T09:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a girl's day out.
today is a different thing....(wink*)

what was i up to this hour of the night?

2006-12-20T00:32:00.000+08:00

...studying myco. viro. that is.

i was in the middle of my studython when i heard my stomach grumbled. so i headed for the kitchen and (thank God auntie Liloy's patient) found an oh-so-yummy chocolate cake in the fridge. i took out a knife and meticulously sliced the whole cake (thinking that if i won't do so, the beautiful cake will just be frayed into pieces by hands like mine who'll take little pieces from it every time the fridge is opened...the O.C. in me). i then put my share of the cake in a saucer and, in my eagerness to finally ingest that heavenly thing, took a bite-size, opened by mouth and finally put the chocolate cake inside...only to find out that i can't chew the thing 'coz my singaw hurt real bad! huhu...

i'll just think of that piece of cake as fungi-infested, with molds of different colors all over it!
hump!

...but... on the second thought...i can just let a bite-size cake melt in my mouth can't i..? hmmmm....

ayt, i'm going back on that cake.
ciao!

omg...

2006-12-17T11:04:00.000+08:00

exams tomorrow....(sigh)

last night at Karl's

2006-12-14T06:41:00.000+08:00

sigh*

2006-12-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

its good to hear the word "us" noh..? (wink)

this i deserve, that i don't.

2006-12-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

today I've learned my lesson - (again) the hard way. that my being always-late-never-early doesn't work all the time. and so with a heart that holds no grudge-whatsoever towards her, i accepted the fact that i deserve to be locked out from our laboratory class this morning. along with my being locked out were 3 missed activities (so that three zero's for me) and a missed 25-item quiz. i have accepted this rueful fate of mine for i know i deserve it. but being backbitten by her? THAT i know for sure i don't deserve. the things she said about me in my absence, in front of the whole class was way out of the context of "professionalism". locking me out from our laboratory class was more than what i deserve. but backbiting me was way beyond the offensive!

we were well oriented before (by herself, for the record) that whenever one has issues against somebody, he oughts to approach that somebody up front - and not to gossip about it with other people. she made that clear to us, further saying that that kind of attitude has been the problem for most people these days.

...so then, what about walking what you're talking?
...what about Ethics?
...what about RESPECT?

ZZzzzz....

2006-11-30T07:30:00.000+08:00

all that's in my head at the moment is sleep, sleep, and more sleep.

gOsh*

2006-11-28T01:57:00.000+08:00

thesis is a real pain in the neck!

...can't wait for Friday.

hmmmm

2006-11-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

...liking things as they are right now :)

chalamat mga pangiiit!

2006-11-22T22:20:00.000+08:00

got a post-bday treat from friends at Karls...! :D
thanks guys!
mwah!!!

dahil masarap ang bawal!

2006-11-19T08:00:00.000+08:00

crabs in the morning is KAGIDS in the morning!
tee hee!

happy meeee!

2006-11-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

kuya Pao's in town...yey!

weeee!!!!

2006-11-14T00:44:00.000+08:00

...got a new pair of havies! :D

keeping my fingers crossed

2006-11-13T06:13:00.000+08:00

with 7 major subjects, i can only hope for the best to come this semester...

then maybe next time

2006-11-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

there's no good in assuming...

... learned that today. (sigh)

P.S.
shellie, chayl, kilet, arnelie:
"shoe searching" and bump-cars with ya'll was a whole lot of FUN!
thanks gurls!!!

im blessed!

2006-11-07T17:26:00.000+08:00

yiPpeE!!!!
...got passing grades!!!
pwew! never in my life have i ever been this close to failing my grades in school.
yes, it's a gradeS and not grade.
although grades, as they say, are just figures, i totally cannot afford to fail any of my subjects.

i'm hopeful still...

2006-11-03T19:24:00.000+08:00

nov 7...dunno how will that day turn out for me but i sure hope it'll be a good one.

2006-10-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

my third year first sem ended up with a rain, literally and figuratively. :(

once upon a girls' night out!

2006-09-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

its a friday night spent sitting on the department store's display stalls, doing what we're best at (kwentuhan,tawanan at maghanap ng costume for tomorrow)...we barely noticed the time that passed by until we saw a number of sales ladies sweeping the floor...haha...pinapauwi na pala kami when they played "closing time" sa radio.. (^^,

odessa, shellie, gladays, chayl, and kilet...kababawan mode!
hehe...luv yah girls!

im thankful

2006-09-25T20:11:00.000+08:00

...my monday was not that bad at all
...in fact, 'twas a go0d one... :)
sigh*

my mom, my sunshine!

2006-09-17T17:48:00.000+08:00

...darn, my grades are failing (i think)

but ma, thanks for always believing..! :) love yah much!

im at ground 0

2006-09-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

...got a lot of coping up to do with my studies.
i am so....

2006-09-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

...i'm just tired,that's all.

?

2006-09-05T12:31:00.000+08:00

now i wonder: what have i gotten myself into..?

2006-08-29T05:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a toxic monday
today, i'm making a new beginning...for real this time...

2006-08-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

we stayed at McDo 'till the mall closed (...blame it on our kadramahan sa life and silly stories)...who were there? jared, shellie, and chayl (tenchu guys!!!)...we missed the rest of the gang, though...

*skeletons in my closet, i want 'em out...
*one thing i should do asap: call Mama...
*...now these pictures are long overdue:

atah, pantat, kirat, paloy, & baboi...
putting these names here is a social suicide!
hehe

nyek!

mga bading!

here we go again...

they took my tiara... :(

eeeeeeeeee!!!!(^^,

whew!

2006-08-20T07:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my friend Rizza's village's fiesta and getting there was the start of my 12-hour adventure.

i left the house with Shellie at 'round 6 last night. we met up with Jared and Isa at school, took a cab and headed up south of davao. the wheather then was a little windy, then it drizzled, and finally it poured...hard, real hard!

downtown davao was all fine despite the strong winds and heavy rain(and the fact that we had an umbrella opened INSIDE THE CAB 'coz the front seat window can't be closed...imagine how stupid we must've looked like...). as we neared Matina, the flood was 2feet high! and that was just the first part of what turned out to a crazy-taxi ride for the four of us. the two-feet high flood didn't bothered us (at first) but when i felt something that's "multilegged" touched my leg for a split sec and asked the driver whether his cab has roaches, Shellie and Isa instantly had their foot on the cab's backseat couch screaming "aaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!". shellie and Isa were still in a somewhat "sate of shock" (hehe) from the roach-thingee when a lightning struck and a very loud thunder followed though...the two of them, yes that's right, screamed "aaaaaahhh!!!!!!" again. then there was that flood which rose at about three feet high now. from inside, we could see that a CE NRO trash bin is now floating, a trisikad is half-way covered with water, and a number of cars got natirikan. plus, water started to come inside our ride! Now we're all freaking out! i mean, those cars that got stranded are far new-looking and bigger than the Kia Pride we're riding. this cab can't break down in the middle of this flooded sreet! i can take a flying roach but definitely not getting on a God-knows-what's-there flooded street and push a taxi to starting! so we were like "car, cooperate...kaya nato ni...ayaw sa og palong...puh-leeeeeeeaase..." and true enough, the cab made it through the flood...we got to Rizza's house alive!

and so we had our eating spree. 'twas a lot of fun with the unlimited food and the unlimited kwentuhan and biritan. when all our stomachs were filled, we then set ourselves for a movie marathon. the first flick was The Shutter. i already saw the movie before so i decided to take a nap while waiting for our second movie. then the second movie was on. t'was Brokeback Mountain. i, again, dozed off for the mean time since i've already seen that movie. then the third flick, A Lot Like Love, was played and on that too, i fell asleep. what was supposed to be a movie marathon turned out to ba a sleeping marathon for me. the last thing i was aware of was Rods' kwento 'bout those creapy experiances she has had. when we woke up this morning, we were soooo terrified to find out that it was almost 6 in the morning and the sun is already about to rise! ...we knew we'll be having kasaba for breakfast today.

so there we were, with faces that speaks of how we're oh so anxious about all the "kasaba" we'll be getting. but man, luck is on our side today! shellie just got 3 sentances of "kasaba", rodz got 1 sentance, and (drum roll please...) I got NONe!!! weeee!!!

ooops! there goes auntie Liloy...we'll be headi'n for Nabs na...ciao!

i was about to type in "yiPpeE!!!"

2006-08-16T00:45:00.000+08:00

i was about to type in "yiPpeE!!!" on my blog after having finally finished my bacte project, commending myself of how i did well on it (i think), when kuya dino asked whether or not my project was done. i proudly said yes and handed him over the hard copy of it (halleluiah!). and so he started checki'n on it and found it...insufficient. my whole world came crashing down that very moment! gosh(!), i've worked for hours just to put all of those together..! i even went to a FARby internet cafe to have them all printed (printer is busted, as it has always been)...and, and googling is not THAT easy..!!!

but then i have to admit, things are not that bad after all ...kuya did helped me a lot on that project. that's why i can't aford contradict his views on my work. i can only try my very best to defend the things that i put there so that what he sez 'bout what i have understood from my readings (and googling..hehe) could be pooled-in together and be made into something better than what i thought was the best.

now, im with my MT Laws and Ethics. its not my idea of a fun subject but given the thought that i can still do better, i'm keeping my eyes wide open (thanks chocolate cake and water!) and my patience in tow so that i can make it through some few more hours.

wish me luck! ...i'll be submitting THE project tomorrow.
ciao!

'been to nabs for the weekend (big smile on my face)

2006-08-14T07:58:00.000+08:00

when i got there a little after lunch last saturday, my itinerary has been anything but filled!

*had my nails done (which is great 'coz Mama paid for it...hehe)
*went to Nanay's (my Lola) place
*got to catch up with each other and talked 'bout stuff
*went to see my friends
*went to Nanay's friend's birthday with Mama
*back again to my friends for some bbq
*got home at about 10pm
*watched tv with kuya Coy and my cousin Lean
*fell asleep while watching tv
*woke up after 20mins
*transfered to my parent's bedroom
*slept on the floor the whole night
*woke up for breakfast
*dad's pork shop and bistek are THE BEST!!!
*washed the dishes
*together with Mama, had my hair waxed
*fell asleep again with the wax still on my hair
*woke up after an hour
*rinsed the my hair
*watched tv (and eventually fell asleep...again.)
*woke up for lunch
*chatted with Papa and Mama
*took a bath
-it rained a little-
*went to Nanay's place with Mama
*whent back to the house
*rested for a while
*packed my overnight bag
*hailed a tricycle
*headed for the bus terminal
*met up with friends (aubs, kurto and kidong)
*also saw Krisna (my classmate from h.s.) there
*we chatted a little
*took the bus with aubs, kurto, and kidong
*stop over sa Tagum
*ate burger and fries (yum!)
*headed for davao
*got to davao at about 7:30pm, Sunday

(whew!*) 'twas some weekend i had, but i had F-U-N!!!

lazy me

2006-08-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

i got bacteriology quiz tomorrow (and probadly another one for clin. chem.) but what can i do? i got lots of excuses just to skip the night's studython...LOL!

2006-07-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

i have a lot of things to do for tomorrow, but i can't find a pen or a pencil and i dunno what it is that's keeping me from going near my books and my school bag...so what else should i do? go blogging...LOL!

2006-07-25T22:06:00.000+08:00

"...so how old do you have to be for your love to be right?"

-One Tree Hill

thanks to you, Little Prince

2006-07-23T10:51:00.000+08:00

i realized, i haven't gazed at the stars for months now...i mean, they're there but i wasn't able to notice their being there...tsk,tsk,tsk...how foolish of me...i used to look at them back in high school when i feel terrible and i would feel a sense of tranquility just by having them on the background...(sigh*)

i should do that once in a while, look at those twinkling tittle heaven-glazers...(sigh* again)

exams

2006-07-20T16:06:00.000+08:00

3 down, 5 more to go....
im keeping my fingers crossed...

getting back on tract

2006-07-07T08:41:00.000+08:00

last night, i went home a little late - and it's not because of waiting up for some photocopies! ... but because old-time friends hang out for a sort of catching up with each other... we really had a much-deserved g0ood laugh over dinner. and im glad we broke off a little while from our monotonous routine of school-and-all-the-things-that-go-with-it.

this morning, i get to wake up on Lola's bed (the all time stress-relieving bed in the world) with my PJs, not with my uniforms..! That is way far comfortable from the sofa i've bee sleeping on since monday. yes, i sleep in the living room. and no, i have a bedroom i share with my cousins its just that when i'm there, i get easily sleepy and hardly to wake up early (which is not good 'coz my classes start at 7:30am except during fridays). and then there's breakfast...'had kakanins and Lola's coffee..my day is complete.

but really, im glad the week's about to end. not because the past days have been ugly and rude, but because i get to make a new beginning. i still may sleep in the living room but this time i'll wake up with a spirit that no pimple nor a bad hair day can topple down! so go on world, rain on me...i don't really mind it..!

life as it is in the here and now

2006-06-30T09:33:00.000+08:00

sitting on my Histology hand-outs
got pending written report
talking 'bout deadlines and quizes...

'till the next ride...

2006-06-29T02:04:00.000+08:00

frustrations come in many faces...and i sure have seen a lot of them these past few days.

we were having blood extraction for our immunology lab the other day. i've been looking forward to having finally plunge a syringe into someone's vein and suck out at least 2ml of blood since last week... morbid, but i think i deserve that little glory after all that i've been through for the past two years.

so there i was, apprehensive but altogether excited. i was one of the two volunteers from whom the first venipuncture will be demonstrated. the demo went well...and i felt releived that it was done with little pain since it was our instructor who did the extraction. i eagerly observed how the procedure was done so as to inflict as litle pain as possible to whoever my "patient" will be. but unfortunately, for some reasons, i wasn't able to do what i was looking forward to...i couldn't be more disappointed.

then came yesterday's "incident". the very thing i was trying to avoid my whole life just unfolded itself and its damage cannot be undone. i can only cry to "calm" myself.

and then there's that water some stranger accidentally spilled on my foot while i was walking towards the mall just minutes after the "incident"! ...what could better complete such a day better than that?

as how Chayl puts it, "THEY come in threes..." i beleive the water on my foot counts third of the mishaps i have encountered... i hope that was the end of it. but i know i cannot expect to never again have days such as those, life's just not like that.

well at least i had a date (with cousins, auntie, and uncle...hehe) at the end today...i think that's the least luck could give me after those rollercoaster-ride days.

...i just hope i'll get along better the next ride.

father's day!

2006-06-18T17:21:00.000+08:00

to the best dad in the world, happy father's day!!! (hugs*)

uh-oh...

2006-06-12T14:37:00.000+08:00

i've cut my hair short and its a disaster!

nerd and rocki'n!

2006-05-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

"nerd man ka boi" ("boi" is what my friends call me...it actually refers to "baboy"...as in pig). but to tell you, im cool with them calling me baboi...i take it as their lambing to me, that's why. it was the "NERD"!?! im not cool about...'coz that is so not me! really! ...or so i thought.

well, the above remark from a friend was where it all began...

after i heard that, i cant seem to keep myself from thinking of the reasons behind such a remark...and i can't just accept stuff like that so easily. i mean, who could?

so to satisfy my curiousity, i asked my mom: "ma, nerd daw ko..?" Her face turned into a grin and she guiltily replied: "...uhm..tagsahay". i could not believe it! my mother actualy thinks im a nerd! the tagsahay was only said to make things look a little better! this is impossible.

really bothered now, i turned to my brother for some reasurance...and he gave me just that. for when i asked him the very same question that's been buggi'n me, the answer i got was: " sa imoha man nang bag,dess". (translated, its a big YES.) but i must admit, my bro got me thinki'n...maybe he's right. it might be because of that big-tote-bag-that-has-everything-in-it i so often use wherever i go. but one can't possibly look nerd because of some huge bag, right? the reason behind that remark i got must be more than just a big tote...it has to be.

and so i thought....

...could it be because of the way talk? ...well yeah, i sometimes talk about things from here and there and my jokes are sometimes lame...but we all get that don't we? its a "normal" thingeee. i mean, i don't even take matters in a conversation "in a molecular level of understanding", as what our chem teacher very often tell us...that's why i cannot be what they say i am...a nerd.

...could it be because of the way i act? ...now this is something i cannot deny: yes,i get a little jerky sometimes (duh...its called reflex), had countless of ooops moments (hey, stuffs like these make good anecdotes), and i walk a little faster than most people (what can i do, i have deadlines to meet).

...or could it be because of the way i look? ...'coz i'm someone who's petite and long haired and with braces...that i wear flats rather than stilettos? or that i don't wear perfumes like a skunk 'coz my nose gets irritated if i do...

but people can't be that judgemental, can they?

sure there are a lot more in a person than meets the eye. what the he__ is freaki'n wrong with being a nerd...? coz know what? after all the deep thinking i've done, i just can't bring myself to think less of who i am. yes, mishaps are daily occurences in my life, but the learning behind them and the juvenile fun that goes with 'em bring genuine joy to my living...and even if i am the plane-white-shirt and denim-clad kinda girl (...with a big tote bag who walks like apocalypse is coming), i love being me! call me nerd, but im rocki'n this life!

'know what i did after dinner?

2006-05-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

...i pulled a fish bone off my throat! yes, litterally!
yuckeee? nahh... after two dreadful semesters of Vertebrate Anatomy, things like this is more of an achievement for me...hehe

false alarm [^^,

2006-05-07T10:37:00.000+08:00

super gurl...

2006-04-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

...that's what i want to be (or at least tried to) even for just a day...haaaay!

well...it all started with an unfinished homework . then it consequently led to me, hastily answering it as early as 5 in the morning and finishing it at 9. but the thing is, my class starts at 9(!) - haven't taken a bath or brushed my teeth and our teacher has already texted me to prepare for a quiz! that almost got me crazy...but how i made it to school earlier than my teacher is a matter i too cannot figure...

so yeah, i got away with that one. but i was caught off guard when a number of the same sort followed through for the rest of my day..!

tsk,tsk,tsk...poor me,perhaps i need more practice before i can become a power puff! (wink*)

!

2006-04-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

we were bitten by some bug!

...T-I-R-E-d and more.

2006-04-22T20:12:00.000+08:00

that titration at chem lab got me sooooo tired ...add to that are the thoughts of missing out the family's weekend at samal and that next week, from monday to wednesday, i have to face lonesome afterclasses because of some inevitable happenings...(sigh*)

i'm just not used to things, i guess...i've been so close to my comfort zones for most of my years and this may just be another transition i must undergo...i know... im too optimistic sometimes that i might miss what it is that i'm supposed to see out of a situation...but that's what kept me whole all this time...

darn! this entry is too much a drama...
...now i want to go HOME! just so i can regress all that's troubling me.

but again, i can't just pack my bags and live (although i can actually do that, nabs is just a ride away)...thing is, walking away doesn't make things any better. i know i have to face my own monsters head on...the principle is easy, but the practice is as hard as resisting a free chocolate... :(

i seem to be a little fuzzy this lately...

2006-04-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

i missed blogging...but i'll update later...got really tired from my "massage" session with my cousin oliver - that is him doing back flips and some break dance over my back for 20minutes (p.s. he's an 8-year-older). that got my back aching but we had fun 'coz uhm...did i mention about us taking turns of doing back flips and break dance over each other's back and that i'm 18 years old..? hehe...

but wait. this is another blog entry right?
so technically, i have updated my blog. (^-^)
...which is a contradictory to what i have said above.
darn! that massage thing must've caused my spinal column some real trouble and got my brain affected...(???)

ayt, i need to rest now...my first day of quanti. chem. tomorrow...i'm keeping my fingers crossed...
ciao!

what makes a morning gOOood?

2006-03-16T08:28:00.000+08:00

waking up with the rain falling after a 10-hour sleep
a cup of Lola's coffee during breakfast
knowing that today is a HOLIDAY!

baffled...

2006-03-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

i still
cant
get by
the whats
and
hows of
this
thing.
tsk,tsk,
tsk.